I don't mean all to yourself all the time I just mean it's yours. You can build as many houses and stuff on it for people to stay in as you want, it's your planet. And we'll definitely visit.
[She's confident that she can include Abbacchio, her fellow planeteer, in this. Not that Bruno will know that.]
[So there's the "we." It's a little surprising. He knows Izabel and Abbacchio talk, but this seems like something Izabel and Giorno would do together.]
[Bruno sighs at his watch. In a way, she's not wrong. If there's anyone that Bruno could talk to about any of it in any sort of meaningful way, it'd be with Abbacchio, who doesn't cave under pressure or let loyalty blind him and is in a similarly awkward position with Passione lately. But asking if he was the "right one" really doesn't make what she did that much different from what Giorno did even if it wasn't to the same extreme.]
I understand that you needed the space and I understand why you went to Abbacchio and why you pushed him to talk to me. But I hope you understand that you shouldn't have put that on him.
It's not his or your responsibility to look after me. That falls to me. I need you to trust me when it comes to that and trust me to do what I need to do. If anything else, I'm well-aware of the consequences of the alternative.
[He's not the leader anymore, what exactly his place is remains a little murky, and sometimes he feels a little lost and useless, but Bruno's neither blind nor stupid to his significance within the structure. Whatever he is now, it matters still. Maybe not in the same ways as he once did, but he still matters.]
I know that just because what happened to me isn't really something I particularly need to talk about doesn't mean other people don't need to talk about it.
I'm sorry you had to witness that, Izabel. I know that does little to change what you went through, but I'm sorry and I can promise you that I'll be okay.
[Like, she doesn't really like any of it, but what teen likes getting lectured.]
I didn't know you before it all happened so I didn't know what you were supposed to be like or if the guy I liked was really the right guy... Idk. I guess I didn't really know who I could turn to. I wanted to make things better if they were messed up but just thinking about everything...
[Even now it makes her feel sick.]
It fucking scared the shit out of me. I thought maybe you hadn't just lost physical feeling when it happened and that was why you acted like it was nothing. So I asked Abbacchio and he said he would talk to you for me.
The only thing that changed about me that night happened before I died. It happened when Diavolo tried to kill Trish. I let my father's death go unanswered for years when before I would not have hesitated to kill for even threatening his life. I let Diavolo taint my home and destroy my community.
[Somewhere along the lines, Bruno had grown complacent. He disagreed with how things were run, but he allowed them to continue without so much as a negative word about it. He just carried with him that resentment and anger in his heart, focusing solely on his own team and just watching as everything else was going to hell.]
I couldn't let him kill his daughter. Not after everything we had been through together to get her there in the first place.
I became a traitor the moment I defied him and took Trish back. If I had lived, nothing about what I chose to do would have differed. I still would have tried to kill him even at the cost of my own life. I would have given my life again and again to kill Diavolo for the crimes he committed against Napoli, against his own flesh and blood, and against me. I know it's probably difficult to see it this way after what you saw, but I'm grateful to Giorno for everything he gave me, including what he did that night. That's why I'm not upset about what happened.
You were just trying to do the right thing. You're a smart and perceptive girl and knew what you were doing. [Nobody needed to mention that Bruno and Abbacchio have a unique bond with one another for her to have noticed. (Never mind seeing Abbacchio as someone capable.) It was only natural she'd come to the conclusion that Abbacchio was the right person to talk to and have something said to Bruno.] I understand that. In other circumstances, you might have been completely right.
But you needed the help more than I did and you still might. What I went through, I went through once, knowing what I was doing and what was happening. You watched it happen over and over again, and I'm sure without the full context. I don't really mean to compare or minimize either, but those are important differences. Things with me could have waited until after you were feeling up to talking to me yourself if it was still a concern to you.
You need to be sure to take care of yourself first sometimes, stellina.
[He's not saying it verbatim, but he's essentially saying the same thing Abbacchio told him. In part because it is still so fresh in his mind, but also because he can see her doing the same exact thing he does. Bruno would never say he's someone to look up to much less begin emulating incidentally or intentionally. But out of all his habits, this isn't one he recommends.]
[A good amount of time passes before Bruno actually gets a response.]
Fucking hell did they teach speech writing in the mafia stop being good at words all of you because now I need to sit here and not cry. That's not a thing I was expecting to have to do today.
Oh okay so you just have a lot of confidence in my ability. That's pretty cool.
Let's see... First was with Mista/SP and I just went out with Mista on the 4th [HEE HEE] aaaand gotta get to planning with another dude that just showed up in the city.
I'd include Kakyoin and Reimi but they wouldn't consider them to be dates. I mean, I don't THINK Reimi'd be into it...
[Okay, but just because you didn't have it the whole time doesn't mean it never came up and Mista wasn't still quietly obsessing over it somewhere in the back of his mind. Bruno says none of this, mind you, but he sure is thinking it.]
I'm surprised you could convince him to go out with you on a night like that.
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A whole planet? That seems a little lonely, don't you think?
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[She's confident that she can include Abbacchio, her fellow planeteer, in this. Not that Bruno will know that.]
Well?
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[He might not know, but don't think he didn't notice, girl. You're including somebody.]
I suppose I would name it after something to remind me of home. Perhaps Ischia.
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Dare I ask?
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[When it comes to shenanigans, Izabel doesn't discriminate. But, uh... Yeah. Their planets were very different.]
What's Ischia?
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It's one of the small islands in the Golfo di Napoli.
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So it's been a while, huh? Sorry about that.
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But hey, you can't argue against someone bonding with him over stuff, right?
[Right?]
He's a good guy. Was he the right one?
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I understand that you needed the space and I understand why you went to Abbacchio and why you pushed him to talk to me. But I hope you understand that you shouldn't have put that on him.
It's not his or your responsibility to look after me. That falls to me. I need you to trust me when it comes to that and trust me to do what I need to do. If anything else, I'm well-aware of the consequences of the alternative.
[He's not the leader anymore, what exactly his place is remains a little murky, and sometimes he feels a little lost and useless, but Bruno's neither blind nor stupid to his significance within the structure. Whatever he is now, it matters still. Maybe not in the same ways as he once did, but he still matters.]
I know that just because what happened to me isn't really something I particularly need to talk about doesn't mean other people don't need to talk about it.
I'm sorry you had to witness that, Izabel. I know that does little to change what you went through, but I'm sorry and I can promise you that I'll be okay.
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I understand.
[Like, she doesn't really like any of it, but what teen likes getting lectured.]
I didn't know you before it all happened so I didn't know what you were supposed to be like or if the guy I liked was really the right guy... Idk. I guess I didn't really know who I could turn to. I wanted to make things better if they were messed up but just thinking about everything...
[Even now it makes her feel sick.]
It fucking scared the shit out of me. I thought maybe you hadn't just lost physical feeling when it happened and that was why you acted like it was nothing. So I asked Abbacchio and he said he would talk to you for me.
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[Somewhere along the lines, Bruno had grown complacent. He disagreed with how things were run, but he allowed them to continue without so much as a negative word about it. He just carried with him that resentment and anger in his heart, focusing solely on his own team and just watching as everything else was going to hell.]
I couldn't let him kill his daughter. Not after everything we had been through together to get her there in the first place.
I became a traitor the moment I defied him and took Trish back. If I had lived, nothing about what I chose to do would have differed. I still would have tried to kill him even at the cost of my own life. I would have given my life again and again to kill Diavolo for the crimes he committed against Napoli, against his own flesh and blood, and against me. I know it's probably difficult to see it this way after what you saw, but I'm grateful to Giorno for everything he gave me, including what he did that night. That's why I'm not upset about what happened.
You were just trying to do the right thing. You're a smart and perceptive girl and knew what you were doing. [Nobody needed to mention that Bruno and Abbacchio have a unique bond with one another for her to have noticed. (Never mind seeing Abbacchio as someone capable.) It was only natural she'd come to the conclusion that Abbacchio was the right person to talk to and have something said to Bruno.] I understand that. In other circumstances, you might have been completely right.
But you needed the help more than I did and you still might. What I went through, I went through once, knowing what I was doing and what was happening. You watched it happen over and over again, and I'm sure without the full context. I don't really mean to compare or minimize either, but those are important differences. Things with me could have waited until after you were feeling up to talking to me yourself if it was still a concern to you.
You need to be sure to take care of yourself first sometimes, stellina.
[He's not saying it verbatim, but he's essentially saying the same thing Abbacchio told him. In part because it is still so fresh in his mind, but also because he can see her doing the same exact thing he does. Bruno would never say he's someone to look up to much less begin emulating incidentally or intentionally. But out of all his habits, this isn't one he recommends.]
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Fucking hell did they teach speech writing in the mafia stop being good at words all of you because now I need to sit here and not cry. That's not a thing I was expecting to have to do today.
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[Yes, this is good, let's do this.]
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Let's see... First was with Mista/SP and I just went out with Mista on the 4th [HEE HEE] aaaand gotta get to planning with another dude that just showed up in the city.
I'd include Kakyoin and Reimi but they wouldn't consider them to be dates. I mean, I don't THINK Reimi'd be into it...
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[...Izabel...]
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[And 2 x 2 is...]
:)
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[He's not condoning this, okay. He's not.]
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I'm surprised you could convince him to go out with you on a night like that.
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