The only thing that changed about me that night happened before I died. It happened when Diavolo tried to kill Trish. I let my father's death go unanswered for years when before I would not have hesitated to kill for even threatening his life. I let Diavolo taint my home and destroy my community.
[Somewhere along the lines, Bruno had grown complacent. He disagreed with how things were run, but he allowed them to continue without so much as a negative word about it. He just carried with him that resentment and anger in his heart, focusing solely on his own team and just watching as everything else was going to hell.]
I couldn't let him kill his daughter. Not after everything we had been through together to get her there in the first place.
I became a traitor the moment I defied him and took Trish back. If I had lived, nothing about what I chose to do would have differed. I still would have tried to kill him even at the cost of my own life. I would have given my life again and again to kill Diavolo for the crimes he committed against Napoli, against his own flesh and blood, and against me. I know it's probably difficult to see it this way after what you saw, but I'm grateful to Giorno for everything he gave me, including what he did that night. That's why I'm not upset about what happened.
You were just trying to do the right thing. You're a smart and perceptive girl and knew what you were doing. [Nobody needed to mention that Bruno and Abbacchio have a unique bond with one another for her to have noticed. (Never mind seeing Abbacchio as someone capable.) It was only natural she'd come to the conclusion that Abbacchio was the right person to talk to and have something said to Bruno.] I understand that. In other circumstances, you might have been completely right.
But you needed the help more than I did and you still might. What I went through, I went through once, knowing what I was doing and what was happening. You watched it happen over and over again, and I'm sure without the full context. I don't really mean to compare or minimize either, but those are important differences. Things with me could have waited until after you were feeling up to talking to me yourself if it was still a concern to you.
You need to be sure to take care of yourself first sometimes, stellina.
[He's not saying it verbatim, but he's essentially saying the same thing Abbacchio told him. In part because it is still so fresh in his mind, but also because he can see her doing the same exact thing he does. Bruno would never say he's someone to look up to much less begin emulating incidentally or intentionally. But out of all his habits, this isn't one he recommends.]
[night text; november 6.]
[Somewhere along the lines, Bruno had grown complacent. He disagreed with how things were run, but he allowed them to continue without so much as a negative word about it. He just carried with him that resentment and anger in his heart, focusing solely on his own team and just watching as everything else was going to hell.]
I couldn't let him kill his daughter. Not after everything we had been through together to get her there in the first place.
I became a traitor the moment I defied him and took Trish back. If I had lived, nothing about what I chose to do would have differed. I still would have tried to kill him even at the cost of my own life. I would have given my life again and again to kill Diavolo for the crimes he committed against Napoli, against his own flesh and blood, and against me. I know it's probably difficult to see it this way after what you saw, but I'm grateful to Giorno for everything he gave me, including what he did that night. That's why I'm not upset about what happened.
You were just trying to do the right thing. You're a smart and perceptive girl and knew what you were doing. [Nobody needed to mention that Bruno and Abbacchio have a unique bond with one another for her to have noticed. (Never mind seeing Abbacchio as someone capable.) It was only natural she'd come to the conclusion that Abbacchio was the right person to talk to and have something said to Bruno.] I understand that. In other circumstances, you might have been completely right.
But you needed the help more than I did and you still might. What I went through, I went through once, knowing what I was doing and what was happening. You watched it happen over and over again, and I'm sure without the full context. I don't really mean to compare or minimize either, but those are important differences. Things with me could have waited until after you were feeling up to talking to me yourself if it was still a concern to you.
You need to be sure to take care of yourself first sometimes, stellina.
[He's not saying it verbatim, but he's essentially saying the same thing Abbacchio told him. In part because it is still so fresh in his mind, but also because he can see her doing the same exact thing he does. Bruno would never say he's someone to look up to much less begin emulating incidentally or intentionally. But out of all his habits, this isn't one he recommends.]