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bruno buccellati ([personal profile] risorto) wrote 2015-11-01 01:42 am (UTC)

evening action; 10/27

[That isn't a fair thing to say that Bruno is letting Giorno do anything. Or it doesn't feel like a fair thing to say because it's not true. Not entirely.]

[Sure, there are times in which Bruno lets Giorno lean on him. Those moments are not often because Giorno tries to keep his vulnerabilities to himself and both of them recognize fostering that sort of dependency won't do anyone any good in the long run. Bruno knows that and doesn't try to linger or create more instances in which they fall into old habits. But when they come up, Bruno allows for it to happen and so does Giorno.]

[Some of it is selfish in its own way. Bruno doesn't know how to be anything but the leader and the fixer. It's all he's ever been even before Passione. And now... Now sometimes it feels like the only thing he has left. He doesn't have a life or a future to speak of, but he can still help in some capacity. But he also knows that Giorno is missing someone else that's important that would take the space Bruno's temporarily and infrequently occupying. Selfishness aside, Bruno can't simply turn his kindness off. He can't look the other way when someone is blatantly suffering and in need.]

[But other times...]

[Bruno steps closer to Abbacchio.]


It's not that simple and straightforward. Sometimes maybe I do let him rely on me too much. I try not to because I don't mind doing things his way or following his lead, but we both make mistakes in trying to figure what's going to work long-term and what isn't. But letting him let me take the responsibility doesn't account for everything.

Do you really think he and I had a nice chat after you arrived? We argued, Abbacchio, because he deliberately told you what happened and he only told you so much so I'd have to tell the rest. He knew how you'd react--that you'd blame him and get too pissed off to be around him--and he knew I couldn't just let you slip away from the rest of us.

[He holds up a hand.]

If you really want to make the argument that you would have come around eventually on your own while by yourself, or maybe you might have given the time of day to Giorno long enough to try and make it work, and I should have just stayed out of it completely, fine. Maybe you would have if I stayed out of it.

[Bruno doesn't really believe it. It would have taken some form of prodding from Bruno to move Abbacchio along and who knows how much time he'd really need to dig his heels in.]

But I would never risk you on a maybe, Abbacchio.

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